Stop feeling sorry about yourself.
Take decitions,
Make a change,
And let go of whatever you are forcing to acompanion you.
Your journey is yours and yours alone.
Maybe they will not understand.
Maybe they will judge.
But then they don't know what you are fighting against.
Don't try to make them undestand,
If you succeed then they will know.
You are meant to be happy.
Have the courage to discover what happinness means to you and brave enough to fight for it.